Mirrored W❄️rld

Since writing my last post, I've managed to get the kit into action twice. The first time I tried, the mini brush felt awkward in my hand and I couldn't blend on paper the way I usually do because the paper for this sketchbook could only take light washes. To be clear, it's strong enough for everything else and is not downright terrible with watercolors, just not something that would stand a spray mister and wet-to-wet. I was able to layer careful application of fountain pen inks without…

I had planned my first kit for urban sketching, though with no small amount of trepidation. Until a couple days ago, everything was still vaguely "nice to do", but now it's becoming real. This morning I got a blackout announcement from the building management. Apparently they're fixing something near the power supply. My LGS kindly agreed to let me borrow their space and internet connection even though today is officially their day's off. The thoughts of having the place alone for myself for…

Perhaps you are familiar with this scenario: a drawer of shame, filled to the brim with things you tucked away once upon a time but never had the strength to properly deal with. For me, it came in the form of notebooks. Specifically, my college notebooks. I had the bad habit of using a notebook exclusively for every course I took, so many of them sat half-empty. A couple nearing the end of my college career were only 2-3 pages filled. During what I would later dub as The Blank Period or The…

When I offhandedly told my friend that playing Persona 3 was all the more relatable in 2025 than in 2007, it was not a challenge for the world to make it even truer. Yet, the monkey's paw did curl and curled hard. Said friend described the atmosphere of this past year (and especially this past couple months) as being "despair-inducing", a designation I find hard to dispel. In the manner akin of old times Hanna-Barbera's cartoon dominoes come tumbling down but way less amusing, everyone seems to…

Wrapped the sketchpad today! I have to clean my place so I'll wait till everything's sorted out before cracking a new one. Truly enjoyed the paper, although in several pages things felt weird. I'm not advanced enough to triage whether it was a paper problem, sizing problem, or technique problem. I think this is the first sketchbook I'd ever had where I could honestly say I like every sheet (or at least they turned out halfway decent), so pretty pleased about that. I think I'd gotten better at…

I woke up with rattling headache and a profound sense of annoyance because this is wont to happen in my days off, though the dishonor of constantly getting this experience is probably exemplified by my tendency to ride the boom-bust cycle of overwork and exhaustion. Because I'm also the paragon of mental stability, the next minute I was awash with melancholy. Suddenly, I could feel the rush of blood in my veins, millions of cells born and died and doing inexplicable things under my skin, my…

Sometimes it feels like one day you breathe for a moment and the next second everything is on fire. The exchange rate is laughable. Our country's currency is so weak and everything is soaring and the sky is collapsing but we all have to live another day. I have some funds in my Paypal account, but withdrawing right now (below minimum threshold) would cause me to lose a lot in fees. Sure, why not, do a fire sale? Sounds apt. The downside of releasing everything I make for free is there is…

I'm at the point in my (visual) art journey where I could say paper really makes a difference. And I'm not saying this in the sense of expensive paper = good, but the kind of surface you're working on affects the final result just as much, if not more, as the medium. Different paper works for different mediums and working styles, so knowing what you can get out of it is important. Newsprints work great in collages, sandpapers make great textures, and watercolor papers... make it so much easier…

I found my first blog, which led to the second. The layout was hand-drawn on middle school math exam scratch paper and made using a cracked copy of Photoshop 8. They're hosted on...imagebucket or something similar? All gone now, but the texts and posts are still there almost two decades later. With all the links to the bloggers in my year, all of them looking wildly different. To know how to style your pages was cool. I remember learning HTML by checking the page sources of all the cool…

Now that I'm comfortable enough doing painting and sketching at home, I'm preparing to move my practice outside. My plan is to settle a few months doing my thing in the LGS/cafe I frequent, then finally hit the road. That's a long road, you may think. Why not just go out cold turkey? Well, that works, I guess. I just want to give myself a little more grace. I already bring pens and notebooks everywhere so sketching on the go is not a big stretch, but painting on the go is something very new for…

I drew a close on today's painting, and it was the fourth page of this sketchpad. This pad has 16 sheets in total, so I have somehow gotten past 25%. That's making me giddy with both joy and fear. At this rate, I'll have to budget a sketchbook a month? Ha. I used to be very skeptical reading people's art blogs, the way they seem to race through one book after another. However, just like writing and game jamming, filling a sketchbook gets easier after the first one. The more I practice, the…

For all my fears towards wet media, it became really fun after I got past the initial anxiety. I'm much better with my brushes now, and I've ruined them less compared to when I started. Now I get why plein air artists just LOVE watercolors. It feels encouraging when you can sit down, make some loose washes, and you have something vaguely recognizable. It's not very dependent on having a good lineart, which I still struggle with, compared to say, alcohol markers. I've done nothing but gansai…

I practice painting and drawing quite recklessly. I choose what to use and when based on vibe, I mix my colors on a whim right on the page, and I gasp find swatching a chore (a lot of people find it therapeutic). I want to go out and make cool scribbles! Also, as a penny-pincher, an irrational part of me keeps saying I shouldn't waste the materials on swatching (and waste it on shoddy mixes anyway? Good job brain!). Even when I actually do my swatch like a good little student, I don't refer to…

Although I stayed close to my former college and even visited it from time to time for certain events, I haven't been there in weekday noon for a long time. Student events are usually held in weekends and despite my WfH status, I still work 9-5. A colleague asked for my help regarding graduate school documents, and I found myself in the middle of a bustling world once more. The first thing I noticed was how awfully young everyone seemed to be. Most college students are legally adults, but I…

Everyone who has ever written a diary/journal-like blogpost on the internet must have grappled with this question at one point: how would you feel if someone you know in real life reads your blog? Some would immediately recoil in horror, the mere thought alone a strong deterrent never to visit personal topics. Some would probably shrug. Some would perhaps question the merit of keeping private stories publicly in the first place. To blog can sound like a cacophony of counterpoints, no? But in…

As a casual hobbyist, I dabble in many different things: writing, coding, drawing, ... all of which also take different forms: game development, zinemaking, ... I have my other hobbies: reading, gaming... There are also numerous amount of responsibilities you are expected to assume as an adult, such as dealing with neverending bills and repairs on top of your day job. I also want to maintain good relationships with people I care about. We only have 24 hours a day! For some, maintaining one…

I'm at the end of yet another sketchpad! An interesting pattern has emerged. I meant to learn mixed media techniques, such as layering colored pencils over watercolors or alcohol markers for texture. However, as it turns out, I've been liking my base drawings a bit too much... and I almost never want to add something more on top of it for fear of ruining what I have. Perhaps it's time for me to learn how to scan properly? I've also found my preferences in regards to toolings. Ruined a couple…

The painting works itself as much as I work on it.

You're not publishing an academic work. Repeat as much as necessary.

I may never do it exactly as seen on TV, but the spirit of the concept is actually a pretty good one.

Skies from the sand pit.

I'm drawn to techniques/styles/forms/formats like a moth to a flame

One of the oldest adage we learnt as a child of the polite society was that money can't buy happiness.

When the world feels too suffocating, when the voice of my depression becomes too loud, when I don't want to think about what I actually have to do, I read.