Swatching Scandal

I practice painting and drawing quite recklessly. I choose what to use and when based on vibe, I mix my colors on a whim right on the page, and I gasp find swatching a chore (a lot of people find it therapeutic). I want to go out and make cool scribbles! Also, as a penny-pincher, an irrational part of me keeps saying I shouldn't waste the materials on swatching (and waste it on shoddy mixes anyway? Good job brain!). Even when I actually do my swatch like a good little student, I don't refer to them anyway. My artist friends are understandably horrified, and they're amazed I only botched things a quarter of the time (they obviously didn't see the rest). I'm not doing this to impress anyone, and truthfully the takeaway from almost every sketchbook page is "I should have tested the colors/stroke widths/... elsewhere". I'm just lazy and approaching my art with wanton disregard (the second takeaway is 'perhaps I should consider sketching it before diving in'). Mostly. You see that I'm not…