Jolly's Blog

Got woken up by a tornado warning (warning = bad, watch = less bad, annoying to remember) but I think we're in the clear now. Somehow ironically we still have power, though it did flicker a few times. I'm greatful. It'll be hard getting back to sleep, but I've scrutinized the weather radar enough to maybe convince myself to calm down, it doesn't help that my partner has been hunkered down at work, though that's far away from the warning so that's good. I'll be happy when I wake up tomorrow and…

Today was pretty alright, though it isn't quite over yet. I hung out with a friend, though they had car issues which ate a lot of our time together which was unfortunate, but we at least took some time to get some food and eat at the park, which was very comfy. I brought my cube and we played a bit of pai gow magic and got completely stomped (4-0-1, the best I did was getting one draw xD). Other than that I've mostly just been cozy at home, wishing I had some yummy junk food. I'll make…

Feelin pretty alright right now. Got home from an ok day at work, reheated my birthday chinese food in the oven, and then got super cozy in ved after running the blankets through the dryer for a bit to get nice and toasty. Then I played a pokemon romhack, which was frustrating (fighting a pokemon with dry skin in the rain while it peppers your paralyzed pokemon with sand attack is very frustrating) but we got through the rough part to a pokemon center so I could call it a night from there.…

Today was a pretty alright day! I hosted a little cube event at that 'new' games store. It was only me and one other person, so we cube drafted a couple times and that was fun! I won both games, and the decks I drafted were very cool! Then the owner got in on it and we did a 3 player winston and did multiplayer, which was ok, I'm not a fan of multiplayer. Overall it was pretty alright. Then I came home and my partner had made some very yummy veggie stew and it was wonderful! Being with them…

It's my birthday so I'm allowed to make an unapologetically horny post My birthday wish is for every cutie to pet me and cum on my face :3

It's my birthday. I'll try and make it a nice day. I do still wish I could share it with my twin, maybe in another life I do. At least I know someone is thinking of my twin, even if it's just me. And I wish a happy birthday to myself past and future, so someone will think of them too. Happy birthday Jolly <3

Our bodies came up with hair and sweat to deal with cold and hot, but hair got way better pr. No one talks about sweat as an expression of identity or beauty. Sweat doesn't get tangled or yanked or in the way really, and it doesn't bother you when you're cold like hair does when it's hot. Seperate thought I've been having; Are they making new cheeses? Like, they breed new peppers and splice new fruits and find new stuff to do with chocolate and stuff. What's the newest cheese? What if it's…

It was a lazy day, I did basically nothing. Mostly just laid around and watched LRR streams, surprisingly enjoyed the Age of Sigmar stream (I've never been much of a wargame person, seems very high effort and expensive). I did talk to my partner about my birthday on Friday, cause I was very sad that they had forgotten about it. They did make up for it though, getting work off and even ordering catering platters from my favorite mall chinese place. It'll probably be a cozy day where we eat lotsa…

Today was ok. Work was a bit meh, monotonous and I'm not enjoying the book I'm listening to very much. It isn't bad just kinda ok. If anything, the beginning and end of my day were the best parts. This morning I got up early enough to make a nice breakfast sandwich with egg (with black beans mixed into it), baloney, cheese, mayo, sriracha, and mustard. It was very yummy, even though I was worried I added too many black beans, and I cut in half so I could eat half at home and the other half on…

Lately I've been quite sad, and at the center of it is the same thought. "No one cares". It comes into my often, when I'm home alone with no one to talk to, when I'm feeling lonely at work, when I'm ignored in a conversation. It's very hard not to feel invisible and unwanted lately. I almost never have conversations unless I start them. It feels extremely rare that anyone takes interest in me as a person. It feels bad. Previous

After this long busy day I somehow found the energy to play some video gamessss. I played a bit of marathon and finally had a decent run after the season reset, so that was nice. Then I was like, damn I haven't properly hit buttons in street fighter for a minute, and I ended up having a good time playing against this TigerKing player. They were beating my ass and it got to the point where we were fighting over which side of the screen we were on, because my antiairs and combos are like 90%…

Ooof I am exhausteddddd. Today was soooo busy but it was very nice. Got up early with my partner to go to a movie (Digital Circus, was good). We showed up what we thought was on time, but turns out our tickets were for 40 minutes later. So we went to a nearby coffee shop that seemed neat but they were quite slow, and didn't really impress us, not terrible but not gonna stop there again probably, their breakfast tacos were dry with no sauce! Then we enjoyed the movie, and we had a few hours to…

It's been warming up, and while it isn't the worst, if I'm stuck at work all day it's usually fairly unpleasant. What has been nice has been discovering how wonderful a cool shower can feel after being hot all day. My hair is super thick and it stores heat like crazy. I'll try and run my fingers through it throughout the day just to try and vent, but being stuck at work I can only do too much. But when I get under the shower and give the cool water a moment to work through my hair, it's so…

Woke up to my hrt alarm and realized I left the bottle in the other room, so I'm more awake than if I were able to just slorp down the pill and fall back asleep. I've been getting up earlier so I can enjoy my mornings before work, instead of waking up and running out the door. Still working on not being stressed out in the mornings, but having breakfast helps a bit. I also saw I got mentioned on Diel's Blog! which is very neat! I'm always surprised when anyone points at my blog, cause I'm just…

Today started off pretty rough. Didn't sleep well, and I think that just lead me to a very uncomfortable and irritable morning. It got a bit better throughout the day, especially as I enjoyed my audiobooks! I finished one called Sunward by William Alexander! It was a fantastic story and I loved it from beginning to end! I need to put it on my bookshelf, I'll do that in a bit! Then I started the second of the Redwall books, Mossflower, and these books are all so charming, especially the…

This weekend was pretty boring. It's just been lethargic and the power going out yesterday didn't help. At least I can continue my new audiobook tomorrow, so that's something. Also found out my pet archetype in my cube has a turn two win, which makes me happy cause I only just found it. Turn one Heartfire Hero. Turn two swing with the Hero, then Reckless Ransaking on it, triggering Valiant to make it a 5/4, then cast Berserk to make it a 10/4 with Trample. Deal 10 damage (Assuming they didn't…

Out getting dast food cause our power went out on a perfectly fair sunny day? The frequency of power outages lately is a bit concerning. Usually it's at least stormy to justify it, but today is clear and not even windy. Half worries they built a data center around here or something. Previous

Tagging as nsfw because the interview itself includes discussion of sex work and pornography. There is nsfw discussion, but no nsfw imagery. I found this interview very interesting, especially the notion of working under the capitalist system being a soul crushing experience and that doing something that is both personally satisfying and secure leads people to feeling both fulfilled and productive. It's also important that despite being extremely successful in an oversaturated industry, that…

It's been an alright night after I got home from work. I treated myself to some indian food on the way home, cause I keep driving by it and wanting to try it and I decided that I had a rough mental day so I deserved a little treat. I got some yummy lamb tikka masala and some garlic naan. It was my first time having lamb and it was pretty good, and there was enough leftover for another meal, though I did order it exta spicy and I don't think it was spicy at all. After that I've basically just…

Nothing particularly bad has happened. Just sad and need a hug. Don't wanna be stuck at work. I just wanna be home so I can let my emotions out. Previous

Despite having a four day weekend, I feel like it nearly all went to waste. Rainy weather and low energy kept me inside all weekend, and all I did was lay around and eat garbage that made my stomach feel bad. The most I did was make more changes to my cube and order some more cards. We did go out once this weekend and that was nice. Got some nice food and walked a bit and saw an army of babies! At least I only work two days this weekend, though I'm unsure if I got any holiday pay for today. And…

I feel like I've been eating so much garbage lately, I just want some nice veggies. My partner and I were saying it'd be nice if there was a neat food truck that served a buncha nice veggies and stuff. Like if I could get a roasted mushroom and tofu skewer that would be soooo nice. Add some broccoli or some roasted peppers too. We go through veggies fairly fast at home, but it's easy to run out or just get tired of our usual choices. Need to try brussel sprouts again, I feel like they'd be a…

Just waking up, and it's a bit fuzzy, as is the nature of dreams, but I feel like I rememeber the notable bits. It was in an older time period, maybe 1940s? I was in the city and got a tip to go to some bar called 'The Tipping Point' because they had something interesting on offer. I find the bar, in a dilapidated building beneath some kinda casino but it was weird for a casino. I get into the bar and the people there are a bit suspicious of me since I'm a new face. The bar looks mostly normal,…

Making a big change to the cube by taking out an archetype that hasn't been impressing me and adding one that I think will be more fun! Cards Coming In: Cards Coming Out: I was tired of the enchantment archetype, because it felt kinda parasitic to the design of the cube, where the cards had to care specifically about the Enchantment card type and nothing else. In it's place I'm adding a tokens archetype, that will have more fun overlap with the other archetypes without needing highly specific…

Feel very bleh this morning. Was up too late last night and woke up regretting it. I wish I could just lay in bed and sleep until I felt better. It's whatever, just need to get today over with and then I'm free for a nice long weekend. Previous

It seems like it's gonna be a rainy week, which isn't the worst, though I never like driving in anything even close to dangerous weather. It's fine though, it's a soft cool rain bringing a nice breeze through the window with the little pitter patter of the raindrops in the trees. I made a nice little croissant sandwich with some egg and ham and cheese and it was very yummy. No plans for the day other than relaxing and maybe making some tea later. I finished the first season of the little anime…

Power's back. Trying to carry on with my night but I dunno. Coming home alone to all of my plans ruined in the dark feels really bad. I'm just kinda sad. Previous

This is such a tiny baby storm, why is the power out again! For some reason this year every time it rains it's a coin flip if we get to keep the power or not. It was off before I got home too so I had no warning. I had a nice little plan for what I wanted to do tonight, I got some groceries (including ice cream), and now I'm just laying here wondering what food I can throw together without needing the fridge or any way of cooking it. Sad and annoyed... Previous

My hair is so soft, I wish I could just tell people to pet me. Just pet me do it, my hair has gotten so softttttttttt pet meeee Previous

It was a nice weekend. Made a new friend, ate some nice food, was super lazy, played an indie fighting game (I'm in the credits <3). Overall very nice. I don't wanna work tomorrow, but it's ok, just gives me an excuse to try and find more good books to listen to at work! Previous