robotamerica

%%yellow%%5:30 AM%%, fifteen minutes before my daily alarm. like clockwork, i am awoken instead to the squealing and screeching of a bird and the violent chirps of her friends. goddammit, that damn cat is up to it again. i swear, every two days he catches a poor little bird. today was the first time i was quick enough out of bed to save the little gal. i tore totoro off of her and she flapped excitedly away. there isn't a shortage of birds here and i would be less upset with totoro if he would…

we have had a couple of weeks of reprieve at work. it won't last long, but the mornings have been much quieter for me. %%yellow%%the benefit is a little less stress, but that seems to come at a cost%%. usually, i wake up with my little coffee routine and mentally prepare myself for the problem solving i have ahead. when there aren't any problems, my brain seems to overreact and wants to either find problems or cause them. to try and alleviate this, i push myself for training in dax for powerbi.…

%%yellow%%i used to find my city easy to photograph%%. after i moved away and moved back, %%red%%i can't find the same inspiration%%. it is now a very instagramable city. %%red%%i hate the instagramable%%. gentrification has turned it from something with a bit more bite to a disneyfied coco-esque parody of itself. yesterday i took early to the streets and markets, but found little to inspire. found a panadero to chat with and photograph a bit. a few travelers coming in from the sierra. some…

the past couple of weeks have been full of chores and odd tasks. %%yellow%%in the past, i probably would have just clumsily rushed through my task list and been done with it%%. but it seems my brain has evolved and i have calmed down substantially. instead of rushing through tasks and performing them poorly, i have focused on one or two (beyond work) to accomplish in a day. for instance, %%green%%installing a water filter%% one day, digging a drainage ditch, on another, and installing a mesh…

within the horizon of the narratable self, the pronoun of biography is in fact not he (egli) but you (tu). the one who tells us our story speaks the language of the you. %%yellow%%—%% %%green%%adriana cavarero%% you might be getting to know me by now. one-hundred bear blog posts. some myth building through the language of you. i write for myself, mostly, but it is in the language of you for sure. i write to be understood, creating a barely controllable narrative under the mythos of…

our standard morning meal consists of yogurt, coconut granola, amaranth, banana, and on special occasions black or blueberries. yes, some cereal grains. but what i wonder if i am missing that sugar-bomb childhood breakfast type cereals. i haven't had any for so so long. growing up, my personal favorite was cinnamon toast crunch or frosted flakes (zucaritas). i actually wasn't a fan of the crunch. i would let me little cinnamon toast squares or sugary flakes soak into a soggy mushy mess.…

%%yellow%%my rss feed has been a little easier to get through%%, which means folk are posting less. no worries. i get the ebb and flow! in other news, %%red%%someone last week told me that list posts are lame%%, i completely disagree. for one, i post for myself (sometimes posting lists), and me, myself, well i love lists! %%green%%i love making lists and reading lists%%. speaking of lists, %%orange%%you really need to check out this list by what the fran%%: fighting chaos. amazing! in other…

%%red%%we have found a few leaks in our roofs%%. no! the house is a little old, yes. it turns out the underlayment below our tiles in a few sections is no longer effective. %%green%%the good news is that we can patch these sections fairly easily%%. the bad news is, we are still struggling to save some pesos to invest back into all of these little projects. it is more likely we will fix these sorts of issues before the next rainy season and we will have to make due and hack together a couple of…

our herb garden is sprouting. chives, basil, parsley, and leafy greens galore. our roots and tubers bed is also looking great. this weekend we will finish planting the milpa: squash, beans, red and rainbow corn, and tomato. %%green%%since returning home we also feel like little sprouts%%. everything is old/new. same same, but very different. it has been so much work over the past two months, and there is so much work ahead. our routines are evolving and we are trying to prioritise what we think…

%%blue%%water is life%%, no doubt. behind our tiny home, for most of the year, the creek bed is dry. trees arch above it and spanish moss sways in the dusty breeze. %%green%%may typically sees the first rain of the year%%, and the creek bed tries to come alive again. but it doesn't last long, not enough rain, and the water disappears. come june, the rainy season has truly arrived. the creek flows. we can hear the water flowing across rocks and small cascading waterfalls. at night, the crickets…

%%blue%%rainy season is here%%. we soaked up the sunny morning yesterday in the creek behind our house. i wanted to catch some chicatanas (flying ants) to roast for salsa and tinctures (i make chicatana negronis with it) but they aren't ready to come out yet. we went for fish burgers and cocktails in centro and then bought supplies to build/extend our outdoor kitchen roof. today is sunday, so traditional lunch with the mother-in-law and then a weekend wrap-up cocktail. another long work week…

i rode my motorcycle into town to celebrate a friend's art exhibition opening yesterday. it was busy when i arrived. i checked out his new paintings. a pastel display of objects and bodies. lovely. i chatted with friends as lightning began to flash outside the gallery. i thought to myself, it will only rain for a bit. no worries. it rained from seven until a little past midnight and it rained hard. too hard to safely ride home at least. so i had to wait. another friend of mine invited me for a…

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i have been able to turn my standard intermittent posting by getting a little more personal with this blog despite the fact i am online a little less these days. a few of my experimental or interpretive blogs have been taking a break, and my blog on blogs is resting as well. %%yellow%%i am online a little less%%,%%green%% but living a bit more%%. after a twelve-hour workday yesterday, i spent the evening routing pipes into our rain catchment system. then i made us pasta and we had some fancy…

as common place as complacency, %%red%%capital had stolen our better futures%%. techtopia be damned, we need %%green%%ecotopia%%. i am a little sad as i type this log on a propriety computer that i barely own and have no real right to repair and maintain. %%yellow%%the 21st century is planned obsolescence%%. %%purple%%we are destroying the environment and our communities at increasing rates,%% %%green%%when we should be destroying the governments, corporations, and greedy bastards who are…

i make a lot of carne asada. i try to have one every two weeks when i can afford to. i love meat, tortillas and salsa. but it doesn't feel like an asada without %%red%%encurtido de cebolla y habanero (pickled red onion and habaneros)%%. when i decide to grill, i usually start early in the morning with slicing red onion and habanero and placing them in a jar with salt, lime juice and a bit of vinegar. i leave my jarred encurtido on the table and shake it throughout the day. everytime i see it,…

we rescued our dog, tennessee williams, in xalapa from a horrendously over-populated kennel. %%yellow%%if you have ever adopted or rescued a dog, not a puppy, but a dog, you know you're in for it a bit%%. we were very lucky with his temperament. %%green%%he almost immediately got along with his brother, a cat named totoro, and he was and always has been super gentle with children and other dogs%%. it wasn't long after we adopted him, that we learned he was a bit of a houdini and able to escape…

%%red%%we are surviving an economy of indifference%%. we must face economic cruelty on a daily basis. why? inequality and disproportionate care in the era of attention and empty performative gesturing. %%purple%%i keep wondering why, collectively, don't we consider influencers, travel bloggers, landlords, digital nomads, and capitalists cringe?%% my city has been gentrified by hoards of american cheapskate wannabe capitalist digital nomads who came here simply because of its instagramable…

the onslaught of %%red%%heat%% for may has begun to ease and we have been treated to some wonderful thunderstorms in the evenings. today it is set to rain for most of the day. the mountainside has turned from its standard dusty brown to a deep green. we checked the bee boxes yesterday for disease and pests. nothing! %%green%%our bees are healthy and happy%%. %%yellow%%we will harvest honey next week%%, and set up our third and fourth boxes that we have cleaned and prepared. we haven't had as…

☺ spent the weekend in the sierra madre mountains, high above the clouds. what a beautiful weekend. %%green%%i feel refreshed and%% %%yellow%%tired at the same time%%. work is wickedly busy, but also enjoying the challenge ... the overtime, mmmm, not so much.

%%red%%with the nearly the entire human experience in much of the world being subsumed by taste: that nearly everything in life has become an advertisement%%. %%orange%%i can't help but feel icky about most things and people around me%%. the moments i feel i have been vibing with and thriving in are more about shared food, shared wine, and shared time with loved ones and friends. %%green%%our herb garden and some of our spring fruits are now ready to share%%, and we have been making small tasty…

it feels like last night was the beginning of our rainy season, fingers crossed. we were woken at two in the morning by a bright flash followed swiftly by a crack and a rumble. the sky opened up and the rain started pouring. it was heavy and lasted a few hours. our rain catchers are full, the air is fresh and clean, and the mountain is glowing this morning. with this rainfall we also washed out the remaining sediment for the communal presa (dam) so we will be able to close it and let the next…

antigallery was born in 2018 in oaxaca, mexico. it started as a counter-movement against the gentrification of our art and art spaces in our city and state. the idea was to create an artistic ecology grounded in anticapitalist principles. antigallery was and is a living practice of decolonisation expressing the principles of %%green%%la comunalidad%%, which engenders autonomous collectively within a naturalised gift economy. i share this with you, because i want you to get a sense of some of…

it is cicada season. the air is buzzing. which is nice, because i can't ever tell if it is the cicadas or my old man alcohol-driven tinnitus. %%green%%this morning we woke up early and made chocolate chip cookies to have with our coffee in the garden%%. tennessee william's, the dog, was beneath the picnic table wanting to steal our cookies (even if they would poison him). totoro, sitting amongst the citronella's below the african tulip tree and waiting. the cicada's buzzing and flying between…

i'm not sure why i have been on such a food for thought (thoughts of food) kick lately, maybe planting the garden or something? oh well. yesterday i was at a cantina with a friend. each beer or drink comes with a botana (a snack or small meal). cantina's are communal spaces. we drink, eat, talk, and sing together with strangers. %%green%%cantina drinks act as a social lubricant and the snacks bring us together. fueling conversation.%% this particular cantina was opened in 1936. it is young…

i grew up in a household, with a mother, who scheduled our dinners thusly: // weekly menu sunpot roast with yorkshire pudding monlasagna tueperogis wed ◀scalloped potatoes thucreamy mushroom spaghetti frifish satdad's barbecue %%green%%𖠌%% %%red%%<%% %%yellow%%supper's on. don't be late.%% %%red%%)%% today would be scalloped potatoes, i have it in mind that maybe i should make them to honor my childhood. anyaway, most lunches consisted of leftovers, or sandwiches including grilled cheese if we…

i am really trying to focus on thinking and writing about positive and productive things or meaningless and fun little things, but we have become inundated with anti-ai sentiment slop. uncreative barely critical writing in an echo-chamber no better than what generative ai can churn out. %%purple%%we have always been a little ai%%. a %%orange%%hivemind%% regurgitating popular thought and ideas. it reminds me of this right wingy pundit (can't remember who, and don't care to look up) who once…

i take pictures. digital, analog, whatever. i like taking photos. my photography could generally be described as street photography, i suppose. %%yellow%%i like to take photos of everyday life in mexico with a focus on the working class%%. but i don't limit myself to any specific theme really, just looking at what is in front of me. %%green%%i see a lot of fun and talented photographers here on bear blog%%. really inspirational stuff. i wouldn't say i have the photographers eye, but i like the…

just catching up on some saturday reads from my feedo list, hi everyone!

music is important to me. i listen to it and i play it. i believe the best sorts of music are heard in living rooms, at kitchen tables, on the street, or at a big celebration. music played by the people and for the people. music that secretly lives inside me %%green%%punk%% - my first %%red%%love%% %%green%%lăutari%% - somewhere in my hands %%green%%trubači%% - in my lips %%green%%flamenco%% - in my legs %%green%%rembetika%% - in my shoulders %%green%%fado%% - in my %%red%%heart%%…