The Disorientation

I'm setting down the white flag, I suppose. I've written about my struggles with reading before and here's another one. I have phases where I don't read for some period of time. I simply wont have the energy or even zeal to read anything. Not even fore pleasure. This can last only a few days or even a few months. And it's random, too. Nothing in particular (that I'm aware of) sets it off. It can even happen in the middle of a book I'm enjoying. It just happened again. I haven't read anything…

You know what I'm talking about? Bic Cristal is the pen I'm talking about. Those cheap-ass pens that pop up seemingly everywhere: from school to the bank and from the dentist to under your couch. Those hexagonal-shaped pens with a clear body showing you its long tube of black, blue, red, green, whatever ink. I really like those pens. I'm a bit of a pen and pencil guy. As in I've spent far too much money on pens and pencils. I have my own little collection. I go through phases, too. Right now,…

I find grammar immensely fascinating. I think it's a gateway drug of sorts. Something that lets you peer behind the veil into an uncharted world full of the mysteries and intrigue of language. You learn a bit of grammar and all of the sudden you can create a variety of sentences and express yourself in another language. Obviously, you won't be fluent, but it lights a fire under you. Makes you want to continue your studies. That has largely been my experience. I was thinking about this because I…

Or maybe a mouse? It's a small one. Feisty and fast. I was at my desk when I heard something move in the back. I thought it was the curtains rubbing against a drawer near my window at first. A while later, while in bed, I heard it again. I looked around and thought I saw a black mass on the floor. I went to turn on the light and it was gone. At that point, I figured it was a rat. Or a big-ass spider. So I went and got a mouse trap. One of those strips of sticky stuff. I placed a few around and…

Maybe not "haha" funny but more "huh, that's weird" funny. I was reading a book that made a passing reference to Kerry W. Thornley who, along with Gregory Hill, helped to establish a belief system or religious movement called "Discordianism." This counterculture-era religion was founded after the duo's publication of Principia Discordia. The book also heavily features in Robert Anton Wilson and Robert Shea's The Illuminatus! Trilogy, a psychedelic, conspiracy-laden, satirical romp. This book…

Goddammit, bro. What the hell? What's wrong with me? I legit make a conscious effort to put my picks in a certain spot because I know they'll disappear. I've had to buy multiple packs of picks because I keep losing them. And they always just vanish. It happened just yesterday. I left it at the spot I always do, then a few hours later I wanted to practice the bass and guess what? Gone. Just flat out gone. No idea where it went. To an island where lost things go, apparently. With my socks, too.…

And it's been doing wonders for my back. My old chair broke about a month back or so. The back support area, whatever it's called, just completely broke off. Like suddenly, too. I'm someone who likes to lean back when I'm sitting, so imagine my surprise when I nearly fell backwards and banged my damn toes on my desk. I figured I'd ride it out as I looked for a new chair. My old one wasn't anything fancy. It didn't even have arm-rests, but it did its job. I also figured having no back support…

This is going to sound strange, but the topic of this post stemmed from research into the Zodiac Killer. If you aren't aware, the Zodiac Killer operated in the San Francisco Bay Area between Dec. 1968 and Oct. 1969. He, as far as investigators are aware, murdered five people, but may have a higher kill count. He was never caught. And, presently, he is one of the most infamous individuals in the annals of serial killer history. One of the main suspects in the case was Arthur Leigh Allen, who was…

In a previous post I mentioned that one of my goals for 2026 was to finally learn web development. I had always been interested in it. As someone who more or less "grew up" on the web, I've always been fascinated by how websites worked. I remember always pressing CTRL + U to look at the source code and wonder how it all came together. I figure it'd be nice to learn a new skill. It may come in handy. So the past month or so I've been doing just that. I watched a few tutorials on HTML, CSS, and…