the first half of may is over and I'm free

As of writing this, its 9:30am on May 15th. I'm waiting for a few students to come and pick up their stoles for graduation. They won't be attending the ceremony tonight. Good, things will get done faster. It starts at 4:30pm. I did everything for it; catering, booking, RSVP, certificates, stoles, emails. The whole slideshow. This was my second time running this event. Last year, I came in about 4-5 weeks before the event, and had to rush everything. It was okay, but not up to my standards. I just need it to be over. As this day has been approaching, I've gone downhill in terms of taking care of myself. I did shower this morning, but I did not shower 2/5 days this week. It's getting warm, I need to shower. My room is a mess, my car is a mess, and I've been eating way too much junk. I haven't drank water for a while, and only realized when my calves started cramping up. I just keep forgetting. I've regressed down to my depression era behaviors because it's what is familiar and easy. I…