CARING LESS...

Stream of consciousness rambles that beat screaming into a pillow. (Though I might do that after this.) For the past weeks, I've been sleeping later (around 2:00) and waking up at 9:30. I get out of bed around 11:00. If I'm lucky, I'll eat breakfast and continue on with my day. If I'm not, I'll be riddled with an intense fatigue and retreat to the bed and sleep another 2 hours or more. I tell myself I should get to bed earlier so I can wake up earlier. But why? What's the point of waking up early when I don't have anything to wake up for? ...about my sleep scheduleEver since I was around 12 years old, I've struggled to sleep before midnight. In our household, my sister and I were night owls. My mother slept around 10 PM and would wake up at 5 AM to pray at the altar. She was a devout Buddhist, though whenever we questioned her morals, she would state that she was human before anything else. When we could drive, my sister and I would go out for late night meals at 2 AM. We grew up in…