A few life updates

Last edited 15 minutes ago. So the deed is done. The 11 year long relationship is over. There was no arguing or fighting or begging. Just a lot of crying and sobbing and bleary eyes. We took a walk through the park nearby, and I thought that was fitting. That was one of the first things we did after I moved in with him almost four years ago. It's been barely a week now, my mind is fuzzy and sometimes I feel good about it and sometimes I do not. A huge thank you to everyone who reached out — I didn't have the mental capacity to respond to those who did, but I promise I'm gonna get there. And be sure I read your message. It's just been a lot. I've been comfortably using fiction (and fanfiction, and cheap entertainment such as Dropout.tv and Smosh) to drown out the world around me. I haven't been a day fully aware since... well, March, probably, but this week more than ever. It may not be too healthy but it's better than substance addictions I guess. lol The issue with that is that I…