A.N. | Insomnia thoughts

Damn. My chronic sleepiness turning into insomnia caught off guard. It shouldn't have, but it did. It's not like I'm unfamiliar with it, but--wow. Truly wasn't expecting this turn of events. As I lay awake, waiting to feel any tug of the eyelids, I can't help but think think think. It's what I do best. So many mental blog posts written, so much negative self-talk spilled. I'm usually pretty bad at shutting it off when I'm trying to sleep, that's why I have to read until I can't keep my eyes open. Media is the thing that stops me from berating myself at night... But alas, it hasn't worked for the past couple of nights. To make matters worse, I'm not even particularly obsessed with my current readings. DNF'd a bunch of books. Crap. Also... I may want to break up not only with my SO but also with a couple of friends. Idk where this urge is coming from. Definitely never had that towards friends. Some say it might just be clinical depression, but how can we sure? Haven't written any…