Being kicked out of the tech industry

I think I'm giving up on being a "professional" software engineer. I've tried it for a decade. I've been laid off more than half of the times I've been in the game. I've been fired while having a mental health break that was induced due to a death in the family that merited no pity or support[1]. I'm told to keep grinning, keep trying, keep smiling. It is fucking difficult to keep doing so while working other jobs to get by. So I think I give up. This has obliterated my job in software, something that began as a hobby, and I don't know what I'm going to do next. I'm fortunate to have family to fall back on but as folks know, I am the Yggdrasil of sorts so once my coffers run out — it'll get harder. We're not supposed to say that we're in a recession but damned if I'd lie as I hear from more than half of the people I know about how difficult it is to keep a job, let alone find one. Giving up is okay. But this feels more like being kicked out. Getting more than 5 rejections a day…