1.5 years since a date

I wrote an emotionally charged post in March. It felt like a page full of complaining, which I hate reading myself. But I also wish there were similar posts that are candid about their dating struggles that don't coat it in "It will come when I least expect it" or "Dating [sex] is useless because they ALL suck." It's been over a year since my last date. This is kinda from lack of trying; I don't have those apps anymore. Hinge/Tinder/Bumble dates are easy to get since many people will go on dates with anyone. If it doesn't work, then they at least get a hookup, then if it works you get a relationship. A win-win in their heads. At least that's my impression. I've never been on a date with someone I met "organically". Every date was from an app. But i feel like without the apps, i wouldn't get dates. So i have a love-hate relationship with them. I don't think there is a perfect person out there. There are always going to be traits that don't align. I'm far from perfect myself. When…