The Love You Want Doesn't Exist

Nobody will love you the way you want to be loved. Everybody wants to be loved in a specific way. You want the other to be passionate about you. You want them to be curious about you, to want to know everything about you, but without being nosy. They should worship the ground you walk on. Such a love is impossible because it demands a paradox be fulfilled. Nobody knows you the way you truly are. The way you are can only be manifested through someone else's lens: the people you have met, the people who have known you the longest. The idea of self doesn't exist when you are alone. Alone, there is no morality, no individual identity. You cannot see yourself the way others do. You can only feel what you want. That is the only lens available to you. If the idea of self is always borrowed, from what others think of you, from what you want others to think of you, then nobody can truly know you. If you believe someone knows you well, that only means it's the version you consider most…