The Sting of Loneliness

Loneliness makes you do stupid things. Like tolerating the wrong person. Like fawning over someone you should have avoided. Thinking about someone you have no business thinking about. The pain of being with yourself feels unbearable sometimes. No amount of meditation helps. Meditation too brings you closer to yourself. But what if you are tired of yourself. The need for warmth is real. You need someone closer to you. Someone to touch you. Someone to hold you when you want to break down. Someone to hug you when you feel not so deserving of it. Someone with whom you can be vulnerable. Someone with whom you can be naked. Physically as well as mentally. And so when you can't have all of this, your body craves. Your body knows this craving. It is ancient. A gift of evolution. Or maybe even older than that. You have known this need since childhood. It has changed its shape but the need remains the same. To want someone is made to feel shameful. Because we have associated vulnerability with…