Arts/Crafts Meetup Log #10

Blender is kicking my ass and all night I kept dreaming about the next steps in attempting 3D modeling. As a result, when I arrived, I didn't even really ask people how they were doing or anything (I generally forget unless I'm asked first, and then sometimes I still forget! augh!) and just took out my computer and started clicking away. I barely talked to anyone, but as usual, other people seem a lot more tuned into what's going on in the area, so I osmosis a bit. Living under my rock... I kind of hate the perpetual tension between wanting to just "be myself" and be a quiet, weird person existing in an area imperfectly and the knowledge that I am actively failing other people's bids for conversation because I only think about it like a few minutes after when the opportunity has passed. Woe............. I don't know what the right way to be is and what I actually want besides to just exist where other people are occasionally. Where is the line between "masking is detrimental to your…