blogging as therapy & repairing my attention span

A moment ago, I deleted a post mid-draft because writing led to a personal realization, the content of which I didn't think was of particular value to ~the blogosphere~. I wonder how often this happens with other bloggers. Perhaps it was cowardly of me to delete it. I have a problem with overthinking, which is usually thinking-about-thinking, which leads to talking about everything in abstract terms and "losing the plot." I often delete "I think" from the beginning of sentences unless those sentences are transmitted in iMessage or Discord, in which cases my friends are subjected to repetitive bullshit. I've noticed that I am less likely to bullshit when I have a hyperfixation, and those hyperfixations can only be supported when I'm not doomscrolling or otherwise wasting my time on the popular internet. But it's not sustainable to eliminate the popular internet from my life, I need to develop better habits instead. So to cut down on distractions and "repair my attention span," I'm…