heavy air

the week has been heavy, and to add to it, the weather has been stormy, humid, 70-80 degree days. the air feels like moving through wet sand, textured and thick, slowing me down more than i want to. it hasn't all been tough though, and the slow down has really been good for me to really think intentionally about my days. my mom recently had a colonoscopy, where they found a small mass of cancer. that has been the heavy, dark cloud in my life currently. fortunately, the doctor's say it is completely curable, and nothing to worry too much about. i still worry though, though perhaps that is because i'm about as far down route 95 as i can without being in the moist swamp lands of florida (okay, a little dramatic, its only virginia). i just suddenly felt so far away and yearned more than i have before to have my family around me. and like that, it seems the universe has begun to formulate a plan. before the news of my mom, i heard some disappointing news about my current role, which i was…