my grandmother passed away

The first thing i thought was “this isn’t fair.” the second thing i thought was that if i have kids, no matter where im living, my mom will meet my child. I'll put money aside for it. it was in elementary school when I learned that it was uncommon for people to not know their grandparents. “I spent summer at my grandparents house” made me a bit jealous. or the concept of walking to your grandma's house and her feeding you so much that you knew you’ll be full for days. My maternal grandmother was a bit ill. she was divorced and lived in a house with a nurse, paid for by her 4 kids. including my mom. She knew our names and faces, but remembered nothing else. I didn’t get to tell her about my dating stories, and tell her about how different courtship is in American versus 1960s Zimbabwe. She didn't get to tell me stories about apartheid and segregation living under British rule, then transitioning to a free but still corrupt nation. Or how my mom was growing up and what it was like to…