things that make my day

lately, i have been feeling this sort of chronic, lingering overwhelm (for lack of an actual proper noun to use, maybe “doom” works here too. given the state of the world maybe that is the most appropriate word). it started sometime at the end of march and i’ve struggled to shake it since. i feel sticky and sluggish almost everyday. both the dread sitting in the back of my mind and the oppressive heat here in the philippines have been working together to weigh me down. i often find myself pinned to the floor in front of my electric fan and doomscrolling on whatever social media site feels interesting that day. few things have been able to motivate me to move or be productive. guilt or discipline will find me once in a while, but i struggle with staying consistent. sometimes i just feel like i don’t have the energy or desire to participate in my own life. regardless, i recognize that things are not all bad, despite how i’ve been feeling. i’m trying to learn to be grateful for whatever…