Realism.

The question I ask myself every night is, “would I be OK with dying in my sleep tonight?” Most will find this thought to be quite morbid. I certainly don’t want to leave my husband behind. But honestly, my goal is to live life to a place where I can say, “if I go, I’m good”. Do what I can do. Experience all I can experience. Do I have some sort of death wish? Of course not. However, I do aim to live my life without regret. “I wish I had the assertiveness to say this. Or I wish I had done that”. Life is too short to entertain regrets. If I go too many nights feeling like I should have done something different, I look for ways to make an adjustment. What is missing? These are things I ponder. My life at this age is grand altogether. I’ve never really known who I am until the last year or so. Perhaps it’s true we don’t live life until our parents have passed on. By the way, I desperately miss them both. Along many lines of thought, this is the one life we get. We don’t remember the…