Self-violence

"Trying to improve yourself quickly is a form of self-violence." That's a surprising bit of advice I learnt this week. I do not put it up here, but I am struggling with life reformation as much as the next person. Like everyone else, I listen to and (mostly) read Tim Ferriss, Cal Newport, David Huberman, David Goggins and (occasionally, God forbids) productivity slop-producers. Like everyone else, I have implemented glorious and big and beautiful overhaul plans that will turn me into da Vinci overnight. Like everyone else, the plans survived 3 days top. Now, there have been changes, but they were painful, few and far between, and I am constantly in danger of slipping. Okay, I already slip, at least weekly. I know that the way I am doing changes is wrong, but I never really know what's the right alternative. So I ended up in the same cycle, trying again and again, in vain, punching the wall until it's too painful to stop, still convinced that I just need to try harder and harder and…