The tides of my mind

I've always been quite fascinated by people who seem maintain a deep interest in a subject over the long term. I have for a long time been self critical of my own inability to do so and have on occasion forced myself to maintain my involvement in X hobby at the detriment of my true interest in it. Over the past 5 years I've been on a journey of self-discovery to re-learn what I know about myself with a non-critical eye. One of the quirks of my personality is my ever-shifting focus of interests, like a planet with an eccentric orbit, my focus passes close to the centre, intensively, for a brief period, before launching off into the oort cloud of frosty disinterest waiting for a long delayed return. For example, just over 10 years ago now, I studied for my amateur radio exams. I found it very thrilling and learnt a lot. I was surrounded by people who had been involved in the hobby longer than I'd been alive and lived and breathed it every day, I wanted to be more like that but I now…