Seeking

Man, novelty sucks. I think I feel this way because whenever something new gets introduced in my life, I get so into it for a little while, and then once the dust settles, it just gets tossed into the proverbial dumpster. For me, sustainability on a personal level has been so hard to maintain. There's been a constant shift in my proclivities and attention—things get dull before they get fresh again, and I feel left in a state of fallout more often than I should. This daily blog has been an attempt to stop that, but even on the days where I lose steam, I tell myself that I have to hold myself up to the standard I established at the beginning—or get better—and if there's any decline in that, I've gotta throw it away and start fresh with something else. I've realized now that I'm just really good at being mean to myself, so I'm making efforts to stop that, even if it's hard. With a world that expects a consistent kind of energy all the time, it can be tough to be accommodating when my…