eating dis order journal

funny how it always comes back to this i like the sense of control, i like the rules and clear expectations, i like the incentive my most recent relapse happened after i overate one night - because that's all it takes apparently. i went back and forth with myself and eventually gave in and purged it all away. that feeling is so horribly comforting purging is a line i promised myself i would never cross again after previous health complications so since then i've been good and kept all of my food down ... im disordered, not suicidal i dont want to share details about my relapse. i think sharing habits can be a slippery slope for me personally;; i have ocd and tend to ruminate on things so um. ill say that for the first couple of months things were bad recently ive been trying to balance my meals better. rice, a vegetable, and protein. ive been eating a lot of salmon, tuna, rice, eggs, and japanese sweet potato. raw onion, cucumber, tomato, and feta has been a go-to as well ... i like…

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