Unobserved

Contrary to my very own nature, I see myself as an achiever. I want to be someone people look up to and admire. Beneath the introvertedness is a part of me who's proud. I want to learn how to speak in public confidently. Sing my songs with a band in front of people. Perform a dance routine. Make others laugh. Showcase my art in a gallery. I want to be an image of success. But my meekness always takes over. When the opportunity presents itself, I retreat. There's always that pull from the spotlight to the background. That feeling of wanting to be alone. There are times when I just dislike being around people. It makes me anxious. I get tired. I'm unintentionally forced to act in a certain way. But alone, I am me. I don't feel the need to pretend. I can get weird just like how I want to. I can sing and dance. Laugh and make faces. I can speak unprofessionally. Lie down all day and not worry about being productive. I like the feeling of being unobserved. Away from the noise. Away from…

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