How to Be Single #1: This is how it starts

I have decided to journal my single life journey. It is a confusing fucking thing and honestly the goal is not to help anyone other than myself. If anyone happens to be going through the same thing, well then I am so sorry. I have other posts about what happened, will not explain again because I don't want to. But this is just a little first dump before I go do my usual routine of watching Brooklyn 99 until I fall asleep and wake up in the middle of the night from my cat jumping on me. I downloaded dating apps today, set up profiles, picked the pictures (one of me in a banana suit) and got to swiping. My god people are desperate on there, I don't understand how people do this, it is so overwhelming. I hate dating, I hate being single, I don't have to date yet but it was mainly just to see what it was like, and well I don't like it. There is flattery to having so many people be interested in you, but it is only exemplifying my icky feelings from being objectified. I miss being in a…