I can't stop thinking about texting you

It is really annoying you know not having contact with you anymore. I guess this is just more of a rant because I am just so angry at you. Why did you have to be such a piece of shit, such a disgusting "man"? Why couldn't you have been just a nice guy? And why do I still want to be near you? Comfort is no excuse for disrespect in a relationship, and yet I want to tell you all about my day and the physio appointment I had and the fact that the practitioner said that I did not have enough ass muscles (I told you so). Every day things happen and I open my signal and open our chat and think about all the things I want to tell you. I want to share my happiness, my sadness and my anger with you. Mostly I want to share my newest insights, which are that I think I was kind of conditioned to love you, and that it mostly was an illusion of sorts. The feelings were real, and the sentiment as well, but the goodness of our relationship was just imagined. It was not good, it was toxic as fuck. You…