Just a thought pile

Last time I posted here it was almost two months ago and I said "My post break-up spiral seems to finally be leveling out" and it was true, for like two days, and then I spiraled right back down. Am I better now? somewhat. I've been trying really hard to pull myself up. So I thought I'd look back at the last posts and see what I did, what I didn't and so on. Mostly cause I need to put some order in my bain and I don't know where to start. THIS POST IS GONNA BE LONG AND CHAOTIC Here's the plan: today I'm not doing anything but trying to get my braincells in a row. I will start with looking through my spiral posts ( one, two, three ), my tumblr ( charoncat) cause that's the main place where I felt like I could post, my Obsidian Vaults where I started stuff and never finished it and, if I'm feeling brave enough, I'll tackle de pile of notes and trash I have scattered around my room. I'm gonna try and write checklist items at each paragraph and maybe organise them later, but also write…