change up

i grew up playing baseball. i liked it most of the time. i would typically stop liking it around halfway through the season. i think i would stop liking it because it would hurt, get boring, get grindy, it would just get... not that fun. that is how my life is feeling right now; grindy. Like when you are playing runescape or minecraft and it hits that point of not being fun anymore. i know that's a signal of burnout. i know it is a signal to slow down and take breaks. i know that if i change nothing i will burnout. i am just scared too. when i tried to take breaks in baseball i would get in trouble (or i would perceive it that way). if i tried to take breaks from school (another early childhood grindy thing) i would get in trouble. something... baseball, basketball, school? something like that. early on i learned that stopping wasn't an option. i had to persevere, and in some cases that worked. But now i am finding it is not working anymore. i sometimes feel like the horse in Animal…