Feeling Blue

I have written and not posted quite a few blog posts over the last month of silence. Nothing seems to come out on the page the way I want it to. I get halfway through a draft and decide I don't know if I actually want to post or not, so it ends up languishing in my list as unpublished. Last week, after work one day I drove to my favorite spot down the county highway, got inspired, and sat there for an hour and a half writing on my computer until I had over three thousands words and a complete chapter of... something1. It was exhilarating. I came back feeling happy and more alive than I have in a long time. I felt like "I'm back, baby!", like my old self who regularly wrote thousands in a day. I thought I could leverage that joy and energy into getting back into writing, maybe even spend the weekend working on something, since I didn't have any obligations, which is a rarity these days. And then nothing. It was a fluke. A one-off. I spent the weekend doing other things. Productive…