"Thy Will be Done"

There is a great deal of foolishness in deciding how much suffering one ought to endure for God, especially when the person making that decision has very little understanding of what he is doing to his own body. Penance is a serious matter, mortification is a serious matter, and the body must be disciplined, but it is entirely possible to become so concerned with offering suffering that you neglect the ordinary obligation to exercise good judgment. i have been reminded of this rather thoroughly, and the reminder has become difficult to ignore The pain in my neck, back and arm has become considerably worse, especially around what seems to be the C6 nerve and upper spine, and sleeping has become almost impossible on nights. i can spend hours turning from one side to the other, sitting up, lying down again, trying to find somewhere to put my arm that doesn't make everything worse, and eventually getting out of bed because remaining there is unbearable. By morning i have sometimes slept…