thoughts on navigating the corporate world as someone biologically wired to just hang out

i got removed from my main work project this week. my supervisor called me apropos of nothing in the middle of the day (always scary) and said that the client is renegotiating their contract for next year, and are happy to go ahead as long as i'm not on the project. this stung for the normal reasons - a feeling of incompetence, like i'd been trying my best and trying to keep an ear open for how people thought i was doing and not hearing anything, assuming no news was good news. also a bit of general frustration that i felt like i was starting to really understand how the system works, and knowing i'm going to have to go through that all over again. i also spent a really miserable month and a half at the start of the year working day-in-day-out on a project for this client, feeling largely unsupported and stressed and overworked, but the client only saw that as a task that took too long and cost more than expected, and a programmer who can be pinned to that failure. it was really…