the price of everything

on the price I'm willing to pay Diary:Hi, I have been thinking about the time I spent looking and admiring certain influencers on social media. I would say I tend to admire their material possessions. On how big their houses were, how fast their cars, how expensive their handbags and how cool their niche styles. I won't say I'm better than anyone for feeling the slight regret of admiring something like this. It's normal as a social creature, to have that kind of motivation and strive to be better. But in my case, I always fantasised, dreaming about those things more than anything. Yet things changed over the years. I did have a lucky strike for a moment to feel the dopamine rush of getting what I wanted for years. I'm grateful for what I had but the rush ended because of the price that came with it. I realised that I didn't really want it. I didn't want to spend too much time keeping it in good conditions nor having that much capital to outsource the maintenance. It's good when it…