LARP'ing Feelings

I am bassist in a Grateful Dead cover band. I do a lot of DJing. I'm a utility guy in a variety show (that sadly ends this month). And I also do synths and drum programming in an '80s-style band. It feels like a lot, and it feels like it should = me as a middling generalist, but that's not at all the case. It all seems to be going somewhere, and I don't know where, and I'm real good with that. I think I'm doing a good job in all aspects, and if I wasn't, I'd quit the band, whichever situation it was. But I'm translating how I feel in every situation or am adding to that, right? It's typically, I'm as a bassist, we're always having support roles. I'm helping get across the general feeling. So it's kind of like live action participating in the subconscious realm, where you're translating feelings not through words, not through actions, but through sound, aurally. And that's something a lot of people don't get to experience, and it's kind of too bad. Where it's most prevalent is when…