october 12 ego

I was talking to Daniel about our Substack project and this came out: I know it can't go 100mph. I'm just impatient. And I'm usually a patient guy I guess I just really want this to be something and I'm coming to terms with that bit by bit, in real time, forever, always. Wanting things is one thing. Wanting things out of a creative project is something else. We all want things. We all deserve to want things. But if you want things in relation to something you are making, and the thing you are making is for public consumption and maybe even purchase, someday, you cannot cannot cannot cannot get lost in it. You can't peg the way you feel about yourself, about people, and about the world to how that creative thing and its constituent ideas and ideals fares in that world. You simply cannot. To do so is to chain yourself to an anchor and then throw it overboard. The market is both wise and fickle. People are sometimes brilliant and sometimes very dumb. The ugly, honest truth of the…