why i like (over)working

today, i had a meeting at work (really, more of a co-programming session). there was something nice and calming about the pace of it - you troubleshoot things that do not work in a dimly lit room. i think it is because i did not feel "othered". i did not feel defined by my nationality, or gender, or anything else - me and my colleague were focused on a task. i wonder if i like to work so much, because it helps me alleviate the feeling of not fitting in / being isolated. it is nice to do a task and not get either closer to someone or further away from anyone, but simply drift in the space. there is something nice about having co-workers, people not demanding closeness from you and not asking much back. i like the quiet socialisation of the workplace, i like having someone to talk to without needing to show my "true" self, whatever that means. i want to make content that makes people happy. i want to post videos maybe and talk, i want to write and inspire others to feel good. i think an…