Week 40, 2026: Hard to say no and hard to say yes

Conan O’Brien says not to let them know when it isn’t landing how you want it but I’ll tell you here and now it isn’t landing like I want it. I don’t even have to check the words. I’m not taking in life around me, so every sentence starts with ‘I’ and I don’t even notice. It’s making me sad and sick, all this dwelling. I have to remind myself not to make the dwelling obvious but it slips out and makes me a bore to wine and dine. The dwelling sounds more like news this week. I’ve handed in my two month notice and have to find a new place to live before December arrives. I remembered not to show it at the book club dinner. The conversation was so warm for how shy I felt. I was the fifth person to speak and the first to say I didn’t love the book. I took many notes in my notes app, like: Feel like it should’ve ended with him finally seeing that ugly ghost girl and then being captured and killed by the armless ghosts Proves my theory that the best way to learn a language is to marry a…