heated rivalry kind of ruined me

In my most vulnerable post to date, I am attempting to articulate this state I have been getting into on and off since… probably as long as I’ve been capable of from having anything from a crush to a relationship. My single gripe with this attempt, though, is less about the vulnerability and more that I don't particularly have someone to talk to about this. However, in this effort, I hope it at least isn't a unique experience for me. A shared sorrow is a sorrow halved. If it is not, then sharing this sorrow would halve the sorrow for myself, making it smaller and smaller until it is no longer a pit in my throat. (some spoilers ahead, of course) So, I watched all of season 1 of "Heated Rivalry" in about two days. I'm over 24 hours post-season-finale right about now. I spent a cool hour-and-a-half debriefing with two friends who've seen the show. I echoed to the both of them, in separate DMs, within onslaughts of emojis and reaction gifs: "yeah i'm ruined for the next two weeks" (not…