dreams

At first, it was because I was missing an old friend of mine. I started listing things in my head I’ve fantasized about telling him. How I’ve grown so much. How as more years go by without us talking, it seems I grow further and further away from the person he has once memorized. I used to hate horror movies. I’m already a scaredy person without my anxiety and panic disorders, and I hate being startled as a joke. Despite that, I do find horror movie plots very interesting. And so a sporadic hobby of mine is to read Wikipedia plot summaries of horror books, movies, or tv shows I come across to1. Back then, I can only tolerate actually watching horror movies when I’m with friends or family. When I was a pre-teen, I went to an extended family reunion and met cousins I’ve never met before. For some reasons, the adults have left us kids in one room and we ended up watching Insidious (2010) with the lights off. During the pandemic, I used to do horror watch parties with my friends and…