bad mouthing episode

Bad Mouthing... so easy to do. I've been suffering a sore mouth (tooth or sinus related - does it really matter which?). Funds otherwise ear-marked - like repairing the car and a cracked phone screen. This is a pain in the pocket as well as the head. Rumi comes to my aid as he so often does, 'We are pain and what cures pain, both.' Ugh? What the f*ck does that really mean? I go on a story-hunt and find some old tales which have pained me for decades now surfacing as blaming and 'bad-mouthing' myself and others. The pain is un-ignorable, story-hunting an imperative or so I thought. Prodding and poking about looking for explanation and reason. It's utterly wiped out by the incontrovertible fact that I cannot verify any story right now. There is only sensation - call it bad, call it intense - adjectives are irrelevant bar 'indescribable'. The story is just a story. Ah... The pain immediately lessens and almost becomes pleasurable. Plantain comes to mind. I find plantain (how strange it…