we've all been that hoe nobody likes before

Apparently, you're allowed to be annoyed with people you don't like? Cool, another social thing that nobody told me 1. I'm so used to being the hoe nobody likes. Desperation emenating out of my pores, my (obvious) insecurities around my lack of socialisation and general "feralness" would drive people away, and my fixation on fixing these flaws caused a vicious feedback loom. It's weird being on the other side of this. Not only tolerating my consciousness and my body, but liking both to the point where people like this are drawn to me once in a blue moon. I'm not the nicest - In the wrong situation, I'm socially behind. I have a mean streak that rears its ugly head when I don't sleep enough. I let things linger. I look back in anger. I am patient though. So I try my best when the friend that needs constant reassurance asks for reassurance, even if I need to take a moment to seethe. In the wrong environment, its easy to be the hoe nobody likes. Its easy to forget that. reply via email…