how unpleasant

how unpleasantHow unpleasant it is to realize that you are the most judgmental person in the room. You are also moralizing—you filter everything through the lens of how things should be and how one ought to act. It is not easy for people like that to live. They never quite reach their own ideal, yet they keep judging everyone else. And how are you supposed to live under those conditions? How do you stop trying to derive the perfect formula for existence? For example, there is the dilemma of an opportunistic migrant from a developing country living in a developed one: is the migrant bad because they should stay in their country and influence local processes, or are they good because they want a better future for their children? I always remain somewhere in the middle—not there and not here, never reaching the destination, but no longer where I started either. And then I think: maybe this is how everyone lives. And if everyone really does live like this, it is horrifying, and I do not…