Everything Fell Where They May

I do not waste my time and tempt fate or dare the odds of my unforeseen destiny anymore. At least, not like I used to.I am too far gone now. I am far from the person I was and growing farther from the distant shadows that used to remind me of what took place on 3rd Avenue and 54th Street.I am grateful for this, however, so please understand that despite my past and my mistakes; I am aware of who I am now and in the end, awareness is the key which can open the door to a brand new life.Or, at least, so I hope. Nothing grew too wild and nothing changed and at the same time, I am nothing like the younger version of myself, which was a more timid version in many ways. I agree. And yet, I am far braver now and too much of a coward to defy myself and step away from the downward lines that fall on my chart, which depict direction of my mental health. Heartache and heartbreak are enough to remind me that yes; people can and often do die from a broken heart.it’s true. I am neither well nor…