maybe writing's not for me

I'm a little over 6 months writing on this blog now and I can't say that it's quite comfortable. There's a few things; one is that I've been much busier about work and spending time with my partner, both things that I don't want to share publicly. The other is that I've realized I don't really like writing aimlessly? I think that's why so much of what I've wrote here is very rant-y/scratchpad-y. Building on one of my older posts I also find that the existence of the discover feed has me treating this site like a social media site. While I care a bit less about my own upvotes, it's hard to deny the meta on the site? Of course you can ignore such, but my caveman brain is naturally attracted to it (probably a character flaw in myself). In a way the stuff I write about I do feel is good to get out, but I almost feel it's more the act of writing it out than publishing; and in that case, why not just start journaling? In some ways I'm also ashamed to write about the things I interact with…