I still wonder if I ever knew you as well as you knew me

The aftermath of falling in love as a teenage girl, mess and all. Found in the archives on a slow Saturday night as a twenty-something. 02 I don’t even know how you feel right now. I guess I’ve never really known much about you. 03 Last month I found the necklace you gave me while I was looking for another one, and I smiled and buried it under everything else in that drawer so I would never find it again. I still wonder if I ever knew you as well as you knew me. Was I ever a valued confidante for you? Could I ever have correctly predicted if you would laugh at a movie or cry at a song? 04 I’m going to have so much fun reading this after five years. I am so glad you can’t see me like this right now. 06 I wanted to know you better. 07 Enough time has passed now. You have a bottom drawer in the back of my mind labeled first love and I can open it and look through the contents without flinching. You loved me once. It lingers.