september 14 jdd

Spent a lot of time thinking about death today. Well, not death per se. More like dying. The idea of dying. What it means and how it affects your worldview. What it means and what it changes about you if and when you get close. This is not me saying I'm close. It's me saying that I have a few routine medical things going on at the moment. It's also me saying that because I am neurotic, highly imaginative, and underemployed, my mind has been playing tricks on me. Today, for the first time ever, I thought about how I'd want my assets and other stuff divvied up after I shuffle off this mortal coil. I also thought about how "shuffling off the mortal coil" is a fantastic euphemism for masturbation. Not as good as "punching the clown" but still pretty good. Memento mori or whatever. I'm going to bed watch some Motiejus Krivas tape. Kid may well be a lottery pick in next year's NBA draft. 🌲 gonna happy birthday 🌼 go to the brother 🌱 touch who doesn't really talk to me 🌳 grass and whom I…