we're back to small big wins

august had been full of work suspensions because of the extreme weather brought by the southwest monsoon. granted, i currently am not really handling a lot of projects so when they’ve announced alternative work set-ups (aka working from home) it meant days off for me. looking back at my daily time logs, half, if not most, of the month either had no work or shifted to remote work. and yet, on the first day of being back in the office, i felt a panic attack that made me want to flee back to safety as early as 9 in the morning. i tried to wait it out and promised myself that if i still feel like bolting by lunch, i’d leave then. things got a little better when i took my emergency medicine on an empty stomach1 and i managed to hold on until an hour and a half before i’m supposed to clock out. i had an even more shitty day after that, which is a separate story on its own. but safe to say i was almost convinced that somebody hexed me2 or something, and told my mom that i will not be coming…