writing is hard when stressed

I have such a hard time writing when I’m going through something. I get too paralyzed with whatever I’m stressing over and I end up wasting my whole day distracting myself with whatever means I have available. No spend was not successful in some ways and successful in others. I ended up spending on random stuff, though nothing that’ll break the bank. That’s the fail. The good news is, while meditating, I kind of had a breakthrough with my anxious thinking. I was using a guided meditation where they said what if, instead of circumstances defaulting to its worst outcome, it doesn’t because it’s only one possibility? It’s very much a “duh” statement. Something I’ve heard of and talked about over and over before. But for some reason this time, the idea of possibilities clicked and my brain felt like it could breathe. I have a hard time with catastrophizing every single thing that happens to me. Which leads me to over plan and stress out even more into this never ending spiral. So far I’ve…