Losing my religion

In spring 2025 I had a crisis of faith. I thought about what the technology I'm helping to create might do to our future, and got scared. My worries kept intruding on my daily activities to the point where I needed to seek professional help. During this period, I tried to capture my worries with words. I wrote a text called “Losing my religion”, which I circulated among a small group of friends. But I never published it, because it was too dark. The lack of redemption arc jarred with my typical optimism and cheerful demeanor. Frankly, I worried that people would think I was going crazy.I’m feeling better now. My fears are still there, but I have updated my belief system and am trying to turn what I feel into positive action. So I’ve decided to publish what I wrote last year, followed by some new commentary. I’m doing this partly because I think many others might be going through what I went through, and my perspective might help.Losing my religion, as I wrote it in summer 2025I never…