5th deployment

Hey, Bear. Getting deployed soon. For the first time I'm feeling really anxious. I really don't want to go. Not sure why, after the trip back home this military service kinda washed off me. We don't have water for a while, no electricity and gas. Can't even wash myself properly. The tax service messing with me because I did my tax report with delay at the start of the year. At the morning our car with another group got on a mine. Fortunately no injured. But if it was not a car but a quabike that would be nasty af. Meanwhile I did two projects: disassembled/reassembled a drone and soldered a DYI radio. I hope this will help me to stop being deployed. I hate all of this.