i should stop being too self-aware

the other day, i was watching a video essay on the dangers of too much self-awareness. some things the vid pointed out: self-awareness can lead to over-researching in favor of actually doing the thing being researched self-aware people don’t live enough because they can get too busy self-monitoring self-aware people are always trying to label things to try and “justify” things, e.g. themselves, the things that happened to them, their lifestyle, decisions, etc ironically, as i was watching the video, i felt the urge to label my own self-awareness. omg this is literally me and this explains why i am the way i am! then i kind of kicked myself in the shin and decided this needed to change. i’ve always thrown around my self-awareness like it’s a flex, or like it’s my main personality trait. to be fair, it feels good especially when i’m in a room of people i deem less self-aware. this needs to change as well. it’s just that i’m getting older and i feel like i want to live more, and to do…